Lean Into Something New
We are just starting 2021 and already the world feels different. Scarier. Again. Most days I feel lost. I don’t know what to do other than to just keep going. Go to work, make food, snuggle my loved ones, and occasionally exercise. Doing something extra for myself feels extravagant. Looking away from the news feels privileged. Donating my money feels both responsible and irresponsible.
I felt like this in 2020 also. And so, I started creating more. I started making my own designs. I started being a little more vulnerable in my Instagram captions. I started really connecting with people. I listened more. I learned more. I felt invigorated and exhausted.
What became painfully clear in 2020 is life as we know it, is gone. Our new normal is not normal at all. In fact, most days it feels like there is no normal. Just uncertainty. Just questions. There is very little we can control. That reality makes me feel a lot of things and one of them is free.
I can only do so much to control my life and let’s be honest, it’s not much. So, I’m going to fall into the freedom of being out of control. I’m going to write more, create more, use my voice more. I’m going to love harder and louder. And I’m going to do it here. On this one little space in the world that I can control.
If you’ve been following this blog for awhile you know it has changed significantly over the years. It looks different, it sounds different. It’s purpose is different. I’m different and my purpose is different too. So, I’ll be archiving all blog posts prior to 2021. It’s not that they don’t matter, but it’s hard to lean into something new when you’re still leaning on something old.
I’ve written welcome posts before but this one is different. It is as much for me as it is for you. Welcome to Lady Bluebottle. Welcome to 2021. Welcome to the freedom of being out of control. Let’s lean into something new together and see what happens.
This is so beautifully relatable
I am reinventing myself too. I have been and still am a solo caregiver for my mom since 2017 starting after a 34 year divorce. I’m exhausted and it’s hard to have my life on hold for so long. I appreciate all you do and understand the place where your inspiration stands. Thank you so much for your artful Instagram posts. I appreciate their simplicity and depth. You make a positive difference in my life ❤️